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Motherhood: rising from the ashes

Posted by Sarah Stogryn on

Some mothers rise like a Phoenix from the ashes into their fourth trimester and beyond, supported and nurtured and reborn into a new wholeness. More often than not though we claw our way out alone; bloodied and bruised; spitting the ash from our mouth that chokes and silences us. But if mothers are anything we are resilient and resourceful. I fully believe that the knowledge of what we each need to be healthy and happy and whole is within us now.  The seed of our truest self is growing in the soil of our soul and just waiting to burst forth when it gets the water and the sunlight and the nutrients it needs.

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Gestational Diabetes: Making Informed Choices About Your Best Path To Healthy Blood Sugar Levels In Pregnancy

Posted by Sarah Stogryn on

Gestational Diabetes testing is a common, even routine, intervention in most pregnancies today.  The infamous “orange pop test” is almost seen as a rite of passage, and is understood by many to be a necessary part of ensuring a healthy pregnancy.  The question we need to ask is whether there truly is 'cause for alarm' or is GD a 'diagnosis looking for a disease'? I believe that healthy blood sugar levels are of *vital importance* in pregnancy, but standard GD testing may actually be missing the mark.



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2018 - from doula to herbalist/birthkeeper and beyond

Posted by Sarah Stogryn on

2018 - - it was a big year for our family, and for me. We moved. I turned 40. We celebrated our 10th wedding anniversary. But there was SO much more to 2018 than just those events.

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I Cannot Be Your Voice: Advocacy In Doula Work

Posted by Sarah Stogryn on

To Educate, Support, and Advocate

If you've spent much time in the doula world you'll have come across this idea that the role of a doula is to educate, support, and advocate for their client. Of course its far more nuanced than it first appears. Educate about what specifically? Is there a line between which things can be shared with clients and which things can't? What sort of support? A doula by definition is not medical but is it just 'non-judgmental hand-holding' kind of support or does it mean something deeper and broader? And then there is advocacy. Its probably the benefit I hear people talk about most in online groups "Hire a doula so she can make sure your dr/midwife follows your birth plan. Your doula will speak up for you."
 

We Are Disconnected From Our Own Power

The single biggest issue which I believe gave rise to doula care as a profession was birthing persons wanting to feel truly safe and loved - the in-your-bones, deep and complete, mind-body-soul kind of safe and loved - but actually feeling pretty powerless.

Women DON'T feel safe in birth anymore -  partly because of how systems and institutional policies are prioritized over the needs of individual people, which is manifested through caregiver actions, and partly because they no longer have real life everyday access to aunts, moms, grandmas, older sisters, or community wise women who are intimately familiar with the nature of birth and able to provide knowledge and comfort and love and a sense of security throughout pregnancy, birth, and beyond. We have multiple generations of women now who have been disconnected from their power as a result of their own birth experiences and, splintered connections causing distance (both literal and metaphorical) between families.

Women worry that their birth - which is once in a lifetime and life changing for them - will be just one more on the assembly line where they are forced along at a standard pace, pierced and cut and pressured to fit the mold with no regard for their individual needs, let alone their desires or even their rights. The system is satisfied as long as mother and baby are physically healthy at the end but we know in our hearts that merely surviving birth is far too low a standard. Even the WHO has released new guidelines in 2018 which reflect this deeper understanding of the importance of the birth experience.
 

Advocacy Does Not Mean Speaking FOR The Birthing Person

So doulas emerged. To educate. To support. And to advocate.  But can I tell you something? Contrary to common use, advocacy does not mean speaking FOR the birthing person. I cannot be your voice. In my estimation, a doula who speaks for her client is little better than a caregiver who does. Even when it seems like a doula is so intuitive she can read her clients mind, advocacy is still something we each have to do for ourselves ultimately as we are the only ones who know innately what we need in the moment.
YOU are the boss of your body. It is YOUR baby. They are YOUR choices. A doula can reflect your power back to you. She can hold space. She can ask questions. She can remind you of conversations and plans and options. She can hold you up and she can have your back. But  she is not your voice. YOUR voice is the one that needs to be heard. Your presence is the one that needs to be felt.
 

Going With the Flow Rarely Gets You Where You Want To Go

Far too many women have been led to believe that they can - even should -  just 'go with the flow'... they hope despite the fear in their gut, that the standards of care will be enough, and so they don't tap into their own truth. They don't find their voice. They don't advocate for themselves. When you don't make clear the direction you want to travel, you will inevitably find yourself swept along with the system instead and most of the time that leaves you at least a little (but sometimes a lot!) battered and bruised, and it takes you to places you never intended to go. 

A doula can help in many ways but is no substitute for the amazing power you already possess within yourself and which is waiting to emerge.

Tamara George of Healing Light Birth Support says it like this: “If you don't advocate for yourself…” (if you are not clear on your needs and desires and make them known) “...someone else will advocate for their wallet at your expense.” (they will take you along for the ride that serves *them* best, not you.)   
 

Find Your Voice. Speak Your Truth. You Know You Best.

Finding *your voice* and speaking *your truth* is so very important in all of life, but especially so in the childbearing years. And while we're being honest about birth - advocating for yourself, hiring a doula, choosing a birth team who supports you fully - none of those things can guarantee outcomes. When you begin to advocate for yourself in pregnancy and birth though, it equips you to then advocate for yourself and your child(ren) for a lifetime and puts you in touch with a power only you possess.  Nobody knows what you need to be whole better than you do. 


 

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Does every woman deserve a doula?

Posted by Sarah Stogryn on

Does every woman deserve a doula? That's a far more complex question than it first appears to be. 

Years ago when I took my first doula training course I was taught that “every woman deserves a doula”. Practically speaking what that translated to, was that I as a doula needed to be willing to provide my services to anyone who wanted them and it would be wrong of me to deprive someone of my services “just because” they couldn’t afford it.

I was taught that it was okay to charge a fee if I had to, but I also had to be willing to waive it because otherwise I was being elitist and discriminatory. The ideal though was to provide doula care as a gift to anyone who wanted it.

Somewhere along the way, my thinking shifted a bit. I still believed that “every woman (who wants one) deserves a doula… **but that didn’t mean I had to be a doula for every person who asked**. I started to look at things practically, and recognized that there’s no such thing as free. If the client wasn’t paying for my parking fees and meals and gas and mileage and childcare and supplies and continuing education  etc… then I was. Saying it is a “free” birth is deceptive because it makes it seem as though it doesn’t cost anyone anything but that’s just not true.

I did the math quite a number of years ago, and my basic costs at the time came to around $500 per birth. So if my client wasn’t paying for those costs, I was essentially giving them $500+ out of my own pocket. After being burned out by clients who took advantage of that, (another part of doula work you're not 'supposed to' talk about) I eventually stopped offering free or even discounted births. My fee was my fee. And instead I pumped up my website with all sorts of informational resources, and poured time into online groups - providing information free of charge instead (free… there’s that deceptive word again…) I assauged my guilt about not being a doula for everyone by making information available to everyone.

And then  - - I stopped actively attending births as a doula. This niggling piece of me woke up and realized that "Every woman deserves a doula" - no matter how you spin it - isn’t actually TRUE. But for someone who had BEEN a doula for 14 years, I still think of myself as a doula, this felt almost like heresy and so I kept my thoughts to myself. I didn’t want it to look like I was throwing my doula friends under the bus.   

Until this week. Ang Gallo of Heart & Hustle talked about this in an Instagram video for her new doula training. She opened her video saying essentially that she knew she wasn’t supposed to say it, but Eff It, she was gonna say it anyways. And she proceeded to talk about the “every woman deserves a doula” concept in terms of the harm that this belief does to aspiring doulas. And she’s right. This concept DOES hurt aspiring doulas. It keeps doulas small. It keeps us “in our place”. It makes us doubt our power. It makes us work from a place of scarcity instead of abdundence. But it does even more damage than that.

Women have been serving other women in birth forever. Doulas though, came to be a profession over the last 20 or so years due to the isolation and disrespect and abuse birthing women have experienced in our current system. Professional doulas emerged to fill a void, to stop a gap. But doulas aren't actually the solution. We're a bandaid on a broken system. An awesome bandaid with evidence to support the benefits. Lol. But a bandaid nonetheless.

I’ve been hearing story after story lately of women who hired a doula, and yet their births were still terrible, terrifying, traumatizing. All those statistics you hear about the benefits of hiring a doula - - how they reduce the risk of things like assisted deliveries and cesareans, or the need for pain medications…. It’s all smoke and mirrors. I - as a doula - cannot stop the freight train that is coming at you as a birthing person in our current system. My experiences can let you know the train is coming. I can help support you as it flies by. I can let you know about options other than the train for giving birth, but I can’t actually stop the train. Those statistical benefits doulas provide, its like saying “Here, buy an umbrella to hold while you stand under Niagara Falls. You’ll be 25% less wet.” Really? I mean REALLY? Doulas in our current system are a bandaid at best; an umbrella in a hurricane. Yes we DO make a difference. For those who are giving birth with a very limited or even NO support system a doula can be lifechanging. In a fractured society where we don’t have built-in support from knowledgeable aunts and older sisters and Grandma’s anymore a doula can fill this space. Sometimes having a doula truly changes the course of a person’s birth. I’m not saying we need to toss out the doula care model. I am a doula. I had a doula at my births.

What I am saying is that every birthing person deserves MORE THAN A BANDAID; more than an umbrella under Niagara Falls. Every birthing person deserves to be treated with respect, compassion and dignity. Every birthing person deserves to feel safe and supported in their pregnancy, birth, and postpartum experience. Every birthing person deserves to feel that their needs and desires matter and are a priority to those caring for them.

When we say 'every woman deserves a doula' I’m starting to get the feeling that we're all getting duped. Like, if we're all so focused on doula services and who deserves them and whether they’re paid for or free or independent or hospital-based or mainstream or “rogue”....then maybe we’ll forget about why women needed doulas in the first place and we’ll forget to be angry about a broken maternal-healthcare system and instead turn our anger on each other. If we’re all busy fighting amongst ourselves, the linear, scientific, patriarchal model of birth we have now can just keep barreling along unchecked. What we deserve isn’t a doula. What we deserve is to have our fundamental human rights respected and to be treated with compassion and dignity. That should be the default. And when that’s the default, phrases like “every woman deserves a doula” will become irrelevant, a piece of history.


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